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Pre-Anniversary Jitters

In a couple of weeks, my best relationship (ever, haha) will be turning a year old. In all honesty, I get mixed feelings anticipating the big day. What to do, where to eat, what to wear, where to go after, are just a few things that I think about preparing for it. These things are superficial to many, but to me, it means much more than that. How much you are willing to sacrifice for a relationship, (which measures how much you value your being together), is seen in little things—little things that most people tend to overlook.

Arguably, most people in a relationship ignore the little things and focus on the big picture—but hey, won’t you miss something by doing that? As I see it, when a relationship fails, all you need to remember are the little details—how much you used to eat together like there’s no tomorrow, how much it hurts when you laugh hard at his jokes, how crushed your heart feels when you fight over something not worth the time and energy, and so on. The bigger things, on the other hand, get shoved back into the chest of broken dreams and plans—things you wished you did and didn’t do, and more often than not, these are many. So why not start early on and treasure each little moment that comes your way? Happy, sad, scared, hurt, blissful, tired, bored, ecstatic—whatever emotions you feel in these moments will complete the patchwork of your relationship’s quilt.

As for me, I can list down a million things to think about before our big day arrives, but only one thing really matters to me—what that day will mean to us, to our relationship. I can be selfish and say that I don’t care what others think, but that’s not how it should be. I know people care about what happens to us, so it is only proper that we care too. Yes, what it really means is that we care—because we care about us. And that’s not being selfish.

Now this post is not about me being scared, or me being selfish. I have jitters, admittedly, but no, they don’t make me feel uneasy. Happy, sad, scared, excited—I want to feel all these. Afterall, life is about feeling alive—and I’m just lucky to have found that feeling with Red. What happens next, I leave it to life. Take us where you want, we’re ready for it. But whatever happens, we’ll be staying together.